This post originally appeared on Emily March Photography.
Oh goodness, how do you take two days that have changed your life and put them in a blog post? It sounds crazy, but that’s because it is! The ideas, tools, resources and people I have been blessed with have the ability to radically impact my business and my life if I let them. If I work hard at them. If choose what matters most.
And that will take time and patience and tears and mistakes and sacrifice, but if it means that I can love Brendan better and be a more focused entrepreneur, then it’s so worth it. And man, does that word scare me! Entrepreneur. Creative entrepreneur. And I guess it should because there is inherent risk involved with not applying for your dream job, but creating it.
I learned a lot about myself at MTH. I learned that I have an occasionally paralyzing fear of never being enough. I learned that comparison not only increases my insecurities, but it weakens me, robs me and kills my momentum. I learned that I have actually made wise business decisions. The same kinds of decisions that built the foundations of many of the women who led MTH. Oh man do those phrases above stir my heart right now. Emily, you don’t need 4000 Facebook likes to be valuable in your market. You don’t have to strive to be the next Jose Villa. He’s already taken. How about being the first Emily Nycum/Payne? (An aside: I’ll actually be the second Emily Payne because that’s Brendan’s sister’s maiden name.)
To think and actually believe in my heart that I can do this. That I can use what I love most to not just pay the bills, but fill people’s hearts and reflect the beauty of my God. That my blog can make a girl with a shiny new ring on her finger feel at home, radiant and happy. That this little website could have the power to encourage and lift people up. That my clients can be my friends. That my photography is art.
Naturally, this all calls for a lot of action on my part, and some of the decisions I’ll be making in the near future will be big and scary and they won’t add up on a spreadsheet. They will probably scare the pants off me. They will require to me to break some habits (deuces snooze button) and they will force me to trust the Lord with every bit of my heart.
Y’all, I’m so excited. Like butterflies in my stomach, stream of consciousness rambled on to Brendan last night for two hours kind of excited about what’s ahead. About the path before me. About a newfound vision that will marry the things I love most. About a strengthened confidence and capability and vision. About what I can make happen.
I’m heading to Colorado (eeeee!!!!!) for the next week to ski/attempt to not die and spend some awesome quality time with Brendan’s family and some close friends. I’m so excited about this time to recharge and explore a new environment. I fully intended to come back with over 600 pictures and several rolls of film. Can’t wait to share my adventures with you!